Wednesday, September 01, 2004

still on hiatus.

this is like my 4th time logging in and out of blogger, deciding whether or not i should post one short, brief and innocent update and at the same time, decieving my hiatus self. so anyway, here i am, decieving my hiatus self by updating this shiznit that i've left untouched for exactly a month. -points to last update and the date today-.


i'm so sick of all the times that i was there for you and when i needed you, you just brushed me off. all of you who call yourselves friends. it sickens me that when i finally cannot control myself and i just break down in silence in a corner, you'd be talking in your native tongue, questioning your other friends the reason for me to be crying. and you people would be debating amoungst each other, finally ending the whole thing by saying,"just leave her alone lah. she needs some time to herself." as if i don't understand what in the world you are saying. goodness, i have hung around people of your race all my life to understand what in the world is going on. it sickens me whenever you recite reassuring phrases like "call me anytime, i'll be there for you" and you never really get yourself into being there. what the hell are you trying to do? trying to create false hope and trust? you absolutely know that i'm one person who finds it difficult to trust. so why are you putting yourself into such shit? i shall never believe you again.


prelim's like in 2 days time. so goodbye again world.



died-ed at 11:25 am
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