Sunday, April 18, 2004

bliss.

i love you. (:


i'm really afraid to feel like the way they do in those mushy, mushy romance novels. i really hate to think that someday, i'll be like them characters, thinking of you during classes, getting butterflies in my stomach whenever you come across my mind, the constant flirty gestures that we'll exchange. cos i know i'm not like that. i hope i won't be like that when that vague, vague feeling come crossing my way. and i really hate to think that to love you, is to trust my heart with you. and that you have the choice whether to hold it dear or break it eventually. pls don't do the latter.


cos i still love you anyway. <3<3


died-ed at 4:57 pm
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Saturday, April 17, 2004

victim of a catfight.

i think i've contacted aids. my sister scratched my skin with her fingernails till it bled. but the pain is exhilirating. especially when i do the dishes and God knows what chemicals get into the wound, causing some yellowish pus to be produced. simply classic.


may's right. i am sadistic.


"You're gonna fly away,

glad you're going my way,

i love it when we're cruising together.

Music is played for love,

crusin', it's made for love,

i love it when we're cruising together."


now, what a contrast to my sadistic-ism.



died-ed at 2:16 pm
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Wednesday, April 14, 2004

jade-d.

fa·tigue

Pronunciation Key (f-tg)

noun.

1. Physical or mental weariness resulting from exertion.

2. Something, such as tiring effort or activity, that causes weariness: the fatigue of a long hike.

3. Physiology. The decreased capacity or complete inability of an organism, an organ, or a part to function normally because of excessive stimulation or prolonged exertion.

4. The weakening or failure of a material, such as metal or wood, resulting from prolonged stress.


Entry: fatigue

Function: verb

Definition: tire

Synonyms: bedraggle, burn out, bush, conk out, debilitate, deplete, disable, drain, droop, drop, enervate, exhaust, fag, fizzle, flag, jade, knock out, languish, overtire, peter out, poop, poop out, prostrate, sag, sink, succumb, take, tucker, weaken, wear, wear down, wear out, weary, whack

Antonyms: energize, envigorate, refresh, rejuvenate, renew, restore

Concept: consuming/using


fatigue. that's what i am. now back to art transformations and additional maths.


died-ed at 9:47 pm
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Monday, April 12, 2004

sweat.

the sun's cruel heat emanated from an unknown source, baking everything that it can lay upon. once again, like many other days, the convection currents was repeating its vicious cycle of morphing me into tender, juicy meat. i thought verses of rhymes and musical notes could help me endure the ruthless weather, but no. drops of perspiration kept on dripping down the side of my face, damping my forehead and my back, allowing the cheap cotton of my uniform to stick to my back, exposing the colour of my lingerie that was originally hidden under that thin peice of translucent material. i stepped into the bus, thankful for the invention of the air-conditioning. but i was naive. the cool atmosphere was only temporary. just as i step off the vehicle, i was engulfed by the humidity in the air. evaporation that took place was for nothing because without a warning, vapour in the air started to condense once again. the sticky, uncomfortable feeling just adds to the reason for my irritatable behaviour. and at that moment, all i really wished was for water to just gush out from a fire-hydrant and i could drench my entire self with the cool water and a popsicle in my hand.


died-ed at 8:02 pm
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