Friday, April 09, 2004

grasp;

grasp;

every moment,

every second of your life.

grasp;

every hatred,

every anger, every vengeance that's deep inside.

grasp;

every love, every dear,

every hope and every fear.

grasp;

everything that inside and around you..

grasp;

and learn how to let go.

|iQah|090404|


died-ed at 6:55 pm
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Thursday, April 08, 2004

partners in crime..

spent the whole day yesterday in school, NOT paying attention in any of the classes that i have, thinking of the dedication that me and shan were making and the design of the letter and stuff. so much for o levels. well, lets just say we have to take our mind off things at times la eh.. so the letter's done, and it's all nice and stuff and it was such a pity that i didn't have my digital camera with me so we didn't get to take a picture of it, so bleahz.


sunny's doing his job as a good friend again. like finally. like when i need a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on and stuff. just in time, that's just sooo sunny. haha. and at the end of the conversation i know it'll always be "just don't give a damn larh iqah. if they don't, why should you. unless it matters a lot to you, then let it out. well, if you can't let it out to them, you always have me..". simply sunny. tell me, how can anyone NOT be a fan of this sweet dude? heh.


everyone i know seems to be fighting with their parents, somehow. everyone. i mean it. okay, that may be exaggerating but yeah. you get the drift. like what's up with this recent trends of which teenagers can't simply get along well with their old man or old lady of the house. maybe its us. or maybe its just them. oh, give me a break.


shafiqah, if you're reading this, i hope ur peribahasa test went well. and buck up. ur malay olevels are in june hon, buck up. the november paper's not gonna be easier.


i don't understand why i bother to update this shiet thing at all. i have no reason to. but oh well, to pass time...


died-ed at 8:15 pm
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Tuesday, April 06, 2004

indulgence.

heh. had my day of indulgence with kak hani. like finally. i mean, finally we were able to meet and have lunch after so many "aiyah cannot larh. i got class at.."s and so many "aiyah. my class end late today lah. i got tuition summore"s.. we were pratically eating and talking and eating and talking.. then walking and talking.. and in the bus, sitting and talking. talking non-stop like mak-nenek larh hor. had my carrot cake and my TAKOYAKI!!!!! yum yum yum. takoyaki is yum larh hor. ooh, the white chocolate ice blend at cheers is yummy yum too. yeah.


the day was fine until mummy had to nag nag nag until she cannot stop. geez. enough larh hor. if i'm such a burden, then give me away.


died-ed at 8:19 pm
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Monday, April 05, 2004

friends..

a friend in need is a friend indeed.. and indeed, i have to thank raymond for helping me complete my artwork today or else i would really be in deep shit. so...


thanks raymond.. *frenzy hargs~* ;)


and thanks shan for helping me pack my bag and put the stuff under my desk in order whilst i was still stuck in the needle-workroom for that stupid health check up.


walked home slowly, alone.. couldn't help wondering if everything's gonna be wonderful somehow..


i hope the class debate team wins.


actually, it doesn't really matter whether i handed in my art peice late today.. cos 30 marks would be minus-ed off anyways. so bahz.


died-ed at 5:06 pm
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Sunday, April 04, 2004

empty.

whenever someone tells me that he/she is going to have dinner with thier parents or their family, i get envious. whenever someone asks "who's at home?" or "where're your parents?", my heart cringes for a while. whenever i walk out of my room and see the family portrait on the wall, i just lose my breath. everything is so quiet nowadays. this house,so empty. my ears ring and ring and ring. i can't stand the sound. from the inside, i feel the pain. the pain goes up to my throat. it gets cold and lonely. the pain goes up to my throat. i'm afraid one day it'll hurt so much i'll choke. the pain gets to my throat. the pain gets to my throat. sometimes i cannot breathe.


where's is everyone? where's my mom, my dad, my sisters and my brother? where are they? the people i see walking around this house are strangers. nobody i know. they're empty vessels like me, living under the same roof. sure we pass each other, sure we exchange a few words. but we are emotionless. the smiles on our faces, are all just faces. the ties we have, are like just-because. we chase our dreams so big, our love we took for granted; our love we sacrificed.


i would love to live in a fairytale.. if only someone would play me a song that would never, ever end.. if only if only if only...


died-ed at 4:11 pm
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