Sunday, October 05, 2003

[edit]: update

tired tired tired. just finished my author of the month presentation. it was supposed to be groupwork, but obviously, some of my group members are weird buggers who do not care about their english grades whatsoever, leaving me to do the damned book review and author presentation. thank god lin shan's online so i don't have to print the thang. outta ink. gotta get some. soz anyway, today was supposed to productive, but its amount of production is much lesser than i have expected. hehx. i did the personal message part of my art coursework, leaving me with the library research which just needs cut and pasting and decorating the page and my first hand observational sketches. i mean i have tomorrow after the lit and chem test which i haven't studied for and on tuesday i have enough free periods to fill the pages before having mrs sim to yell or making me feel guilty for not doing my work. yikes. but talked to yaya about some serious shit and stuff. and then we went to stupid.com and laughed at the stupid stuff that they sell there and other stupid shits. there was one joke that goes:"your momma's glasses so thick that when she looks at the map, she can see people waving at her". gahz. lolx. love it. embrace it. as stupid as it may be.


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died-ed at 9:51 pm
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i was made to love you

tt's the title of tha song that has been playing over and over again.. heard it from spookey's blog. :D:D the lyrics are really meaningful and the ppl he dedicated tha song to is just *aww..* very very full after eating fried rice with ayamas drumlets n nuggets.. hehehx. if asyikin knows, she'll kill me. hehe. i think i'll edit this thang later on or somethang. gotta start doing my art prepatory work already. yikes.


died-ed at 1:12 pm
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Saturday, October 04, 2003

omg! i did it! =D

had higher malay exam just now.. when i reached there i saw an adiba reading her peribahasa list whilst i was reading my flowery phrases thang.. n then i was like "oh shit! my dad didn't give me money" and i called abah up and he came and i took the money and when i sat down adiba was like "atiqah.. ur weird" hahax.. that is just me. :P n then i gave up on the flowery phrases cos i figured that i've got a dictionary to assist me and thus if i bother, i'll make up some of my own. n then i started studying the peribahasa but i couldn't because i was too sleepy and i slept with the list under my pillow last night. soz, yeah. lolx. i did the first formatted-question which is the formal letter writing. hahax. talked crap for that paper. lolx.. and then the second question i did the peribahasa-related question.. its abt some girl got back from oxford and very rich and stuff. all along she's been told that the wealth her dad got is passed down cash from her grandad. she doesn't like her mom cos her mom just appears and disappears. so when she got back fr oxford, she saw her mom, she got all puzzled and angryn stuff. soz she won't eat dinner together cos its her mom who cooked it for her and she didn't want to eat the dinner together with her. n then at night she crept into the kitchen n hurt her hand n suddenly her mom was there to clean the wound and stuff n then she felt touched n stuff. n thus got closer to her mom. n then one day she was looking for the oxford letter she found some medical bills n bank books n a note from her mom to her dad telling her dad that she transacted the money to her dad's account to pay for her education and then her mom is doing a big project n if its successful, she'll gain $15m n tell the dad not to worry abt her operations.. soz the girl think back abt her studies n found out all the operations was related to cancer. i was abt to write the thang but i was stumped at the word until now soz dun bother larhz. n then the girl found out that the one who was bringing in the wealth was the mother, the reason she got to oxford was her mother, everthing her mother larh hor. n then the fone ring n then the dad told her her mom passed away n then she regret n then got the "hutang emas boleh dibayar, hutang budi dibawa mati" (owe money can pay, owe kindness bring to ur grave) gahz.. why am i saying all this?? on the way hme i rzaini, jun hui, seng peng, angela, linlin n more idiot took the same bus that i was on n they were like why nvr come for geog extra lesson and i was like i too clever i had to put my higher malay as a priority over geog. hehx.. and whilst to my stop, me and seng peng were like singing singing.. haha.. didn't go to the esplanade library after all cos i am too lazy n i have only ten bucks. so i guess i shld print the pix already and get on with my assignment and step into my sister's room to make noise. i shall.. before that.. "iqah iqah.. pokka pokka.. piyaka piya piya pong!"


died-ed at 3:34 pm
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Friday, October 03, 2003

yeah. damn full. yeah. =)

i am freakingly full since 2 hrs ago when i finished eating the main course, dessert and more laughter at breeks just now. =D =D dear dear was about to follow but i decided no, today its just gonna be me and yaya. sorry darling. *blush* next wk alright. study or something.. =) although my morning was like a peice of crap, going out with yaya certainly cheered me up. so whatever jun hui said to sze herng about why i am situated at the corner of the class isn't going to be on my head from now on. school was such a waste to day, apart from the physics tips she gave us and the test. oh the test. the first question was "what factors are taken to consideration for the development of singapore's sentosa" and i was like talking about resort developmentment and tourism and stuff for 10 mins until i realised it was crap and i wasted time. gee. n then after school i went home and slept for a while and then yaya called me and suddenly we made arrangements to go out and stuff.. hehx.. it was kewl larhz.. except for finding-the-books-and-not-be-able-to-find-them-and-stoopit-not-to-ask-for-help-cos-we-were-ignorant part of the outing.. n then fed up we went to breeks to eat.. i had fish and chips and yaya had chicked patty melted or something like that.. waahhh yummy leyyy!! and then we had this black and white icecream with whipped cream and cherries.. heehee.. and the waitress was very nice leyy!! if only.. if only she's my elder sis.. heehee.. she also has chinese blood.. like me!! :D anyway, she said that me and yaya look like sisters.. and chinese.. haha.. despite my tudung.. bleahz.. gahz.. now i need to do research on cubism. bleakz.


died-ed at 8:12 pm
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Thursday, October 02, 2003

stoopit computer

i was blogging when short circuit(sp?) had to happen. gee. so anyway, my previous title was supposed to be "girls don't like boys girls like cars and money" heehee.. was singing that stupid song during p.e. whilst defending the captain during captain's ball just now. the game rawked. my team was leading the game and we won, duh. =D oh, the modesty. hehx. i miss my dear dear.. =( so anyway, lit didn't do anything but sleep for half and hr and chemistry was kinda laidback, don't know why. maybe because her boyfriend just proposed to her or something. jason and tommy wouldn't stop spraying their stupid cheap-brand cologne. the ones that make you squint when its being sprayed too much. gee. mr yeo didn't come to sch today -i wonder why. :P- had recess with see hui and clara and chew hwee.. hehx. i am becoming closer to see hui by the day. geez. i hope not too close. :S got our art final-year question paper. the theme is: me, myself and i and we have got 2 aspects to choose from which is either geographical feature of me or identity crisis.. i am choosing.. IDENTITY CRISIS *tatatataaaaaaa* hehx. and i shall NOT put my idea here, lest someone steals it like the other time.. *evil eyes begin to scan the world* but got a lot of stuff to do.. find 12 pictures of expressions and describe them and use them as a personal message thang, n then 6-8 first hand observational sketches, with details and shadows and highlights and explanation, library research on either surrealsim, impressionism or cubicism INCLUDING some of the techniques, subject matter and media used by famous artists and from there make a reference to the 3 compositions that i have to make and choose one and make 2 colour combinations and then chose one for my final composition. *takes deep breath* gahzzzzzzzz. how to do?! 2 wks only leyyyyyyy.. ENDURE.. hehee.. that words reminds me of my dear dear and how much i miss him, causing me to miss him even more. *wails* gee, anyway, i am thinking of doing cubicism soz i can use monochrome technique and draw anyhow and still look nice. but the prepatory work damn leceh troublesome xia.. BUT must make nice nice.. hehx. i must get a1!! no more a2... oh my modesty.. :P


died-ed at 4:11 pm
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Wednesday, October 01, 2003

mood swings

finally i decided to put a "yes" for daily blog title. hehx. so lazy to but the tags and stuff. mood swings. yeah. been having a lot of those lately. maybe due to exam pressure or whatever. luckily my dear dear manage to cheer me on. thankiez. love ya. *muahcksz* speaking of which, he was supposed to get the $300 good progress award thang but stupid moe won't give it to him because his household income is more than $3000 a month. gee. unfair judgement sehz. morning was quite okay. wendy gave me that i like a lot that she got for me that was left over at the place that she works at. thank u girl! english we did contextual clues, again. mrs guna finally decided that my group dodn't have to present the author(joseph conrad) review.. was so happy until she said that the whole class have to do at least 6 book reviews on her recommended classic reading shitake. =S she's utterly full of crap i can't stand it. ugh. and then it was chem and we started on metal extraction and stuff. then miss lee gave us sweets for children's day (yay?). hehx. n then jun hui said something to me that made me changed my mood right that instant. =s obviously, it wasn't only him. ugh. i have exam pressures and i cannot get over it and thus i become constantly hungry. abah asked me why i am not as enthusiastic as mir when it comes to losing weight. and i had one straight answer that shut him up just like that. just as mir is enthusiastic in improving her weight, i am enthusiastic in improving my results. and he asked for proof and i said," easy, compare her sec 1 results and mine. and to think that sec 1 is just a little recap and advance of primary 6 assestment". in my heart i was grinning like a chesire(sp?) cat. =D only at that moment of the day i felt like a star. and i love that feeling. i'm craving for it. i wanna keep it. for now, for ever.


died-ed at 3:54 pm
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Tuesday, September 30, 2003

A story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home from the war. He called his parents from San Francisco.
"Mom and Dad, I'm coming home, but I've a favor to ask. I have a friend I'd like to bring home with me."

"Sure," they replied, "we'd love to meet him."

"There's something you should know the son continued, "he was hurt pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I'm sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don't know what you're asking. Someone with such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we can't let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home and forget about this guy. He'll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide. The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also discovered something they didn't know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are good-looking or fun to have around, but we don't like people who inconvenience us or make us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren't as healthy, beautiful, or smart as we are. Thankfully, there's someone who won't treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more understanding of those who are different from us!!! There's a miracle called Friendship That dwells in the heart You don't know how it happens Or when it gets started But you know the special lift It always brings And you realize that Friendship Is God's most precious gift! Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their hearts to us.


died-ed at 5:28 pm
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this is sinful. gahz.:

i am supposed to be on my way to hougang stadium for my school's annual sports day right now but nope, i am here blogging and listening to britney spears's i'm not a gurl(wtf?!).. gahzzzz... i was supposed to find mr soo in school just now to get the digicam card thang but cldn't find him so i wun be doing photography duty lorz. hahx. lame cca so what? i am hungry and tt stupid maid dunno how to stop hogging the phone in MY room and START COOKING ALREADY!! ughhhhh. if my mum doesnt come back, she won't cook one.. irresponsible lame peice of shit. =x kk. no more name calling. anyway, the stupid flat upgrading has been going on and soooo diff for me to study. i think i want to sue them cdc. ahax. and my dad is a cdc member? gee. reality check: my dad is a member of everything! gahz lol. yah so my maid nvr close the window next to computer, causing the residue of the drilling of the walls or ceiling or floor or whatever to come inside (??) and go all over the keyboard and the computer table and stuff.. and when i switch on the fan at full speed, the stoopit residue went into my eye. ouch. school was lame shit today. we continued doing the chong boon paper and going thru the answers during english so the lesson was kinda dry.. during amaths we were like joking when we were going thru the matrices qn.. hahax. mr yeo asked kularesh "what do u understand by single matrices"... "and by the way, where's ur specs" and then ronald told him tt he lost his specs in the water during obs.. and one thing led to another and the whole class was cracking.. n then like 20 mins after cracking stoopit jokes, mr yeo went"ok ok.. enuff.. so what are single matrices??" and the whole class laughed again. bleakz. n then it was recess, didn't eat.. sat at the study area looking thru siti's bio notes(wtf?? i dun even take bio!) and watching a few sec4 n(a) guys breakdancing. gahz. some are quite good larhx. gee.. siti said tt they breakdance everyday.. =S so loyal to their concepts.. n then it was lit.. when mrs yu came to the class, tommy and jason they all started singing birthday song to her in english and chinese like they always do.. haha.. and then it happens that today is yew swee's birthday and the whole class sang and then bang the tables and cupboard and noticeboard.. and then the english h.o.d. walked past our class.. haha.. suddenly the class when all so silent. like fucken shit like that.. 2 mins after she went, the fire alarm went and then we had a fire drill.. ahah.. wasted literature sia! its already like a free period to us.. they shld'ave done it during english or stg.. THEN it wld be some serious time wasting exercise.. gahz.. they school field is so soggy.. haha.. we were playing with the milipedes and the grasshoppers and the dragonflies.. like stoopit ppl like that.. hehx.. me and engsiew started singing the forbiddencity theme song.. gee. no wonder the sky went dark fer a while.. right at this moment, ppl at hg stadium are taking attendence with their form teacher and i am here blogging my ass off with an empty stomach, feeling guilty for not finding mr soo thoroughly and not doing my photography duty. well, i'm a slacker: life is for now, work is for later. =D

cheerios.


died-ed at 1:09 pm
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Monday, September 29, 2003

wah lan oi!!:

bibik go n throw my favourite pillow.. how to sleep tonight?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? anyways, today was pretty boring. back at my old seat at the corner of the class, minding my own beezwax as usual.. the obs ppl are tanned... haha.. sze herng is darker than me.. (finally!!) hml was ok... kinda boring uh.. after hml, i went to pin my skirt n then whilst walking out of anderson me and nasyitah were talking n then somehow, istiqamah came out in the conversation and then suddenly her mom knows my mom.. hehx. it is a small world. the whole day i was singing so sorry ppl when it rained just now and i caused a lot of inconvenience.. haha.. i was doodlin during social studies and gonna take them pix and email it to the ppl i was doodlin to.. bleakz. which reminds me.. the whole day i have been sms-ing muqmin and sharul.. gahz. reality check: bill is getting higher by the min..
walking in the rain:
Sitting by the window
Singing songs of love
Wishing you were here
Because the memory's not enough
Wear my mask in silence
Pretending I'm alright
If you could see then you would be
Here standing by my side

It may be hard to believe
But girl you're the only one I need
It may be hard along the way
It's this feeling I get
When blue skies turn to grey

Feels like I'm walking in the rain
I find myself trying to wash away the pain
'Cause I need you to give me some shelter
'Cause I'm fading away
And baby, I'm walking in the rain

Every single hour
Of every single day
I need to cry, my eyes are dry
I've cried my tears away
Can't help but remember
How you made me feel
You dressed my soul and made me whole
You made my life complete

It may be hard to believe
But girl you're the only one I need
It may be hard along the way
It's this feeling I get
When blue skies turn to grey

Feels like I'm walking in the rain
I find myself trying to wash away the pain
'Cause I need you to give me some shelter
'Cause I'm fading away
And baby, I'm walking in the rain

Of all we've said and done
Remains the memories of days
When life was fun
But now when you are gone
I sit alone to watch the setting of the sun

Feels like I'm walking in the rain
I find myself trying to wash away the pain
'Cause I need you to give me some shelter
'Cause I'm fading away
And baby, I'm walking in the rain

I said baby, I'm walking in the rain


died-ed at 5:22 pm
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