Sunday, August 01, 2004

hiatus.

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uh, still on hiatus. just wanted to put this image:





yeah. so goodbye again.

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okay. so i haven't announced that i'm on hiatus. so here i am, world, announcing that:

i'm on hiatus.





anyway, most of you would prolly know half the reason for my absence. o's and all, blah blah blah. there are other problems in my life, problems that i do not wish to discuss to anyone or anything, pen it down, talk it out or type it into this virtual realm of which i know anyone can access no matter where they are. and sometimes, when people know what's bothering you, they bother you by asking if the thing that's bothering you is still bothering you. and that's quite a bother now, ain't it?


sometimes i wish people will stop feeding me with all those bullshitting hope and promises. promises mean everything when you're so little and the world seems so big. actually, not seem. the world IS big. and it's rather irritating when what you feel, you can't let out. what you want to let out, you won't let out because you'll feel guilty of some sort. like you're ungrateful, like you're revealing your private life and the aftermath is like the mafia being revealed: the outside people would forever question you and the inside people would despise you.


and sometimes i think the angel of death is taking his own sweet time to come and claim my life. and sometimes i feel afraid that he'll come now. but for the time being, i think he's taking his own sweet time. and sometimes i feel that i shouldn't wait for him to claim my life. sometimes i feel that it's me who just end it on my own. SOMETIMES. not all the time. but no, i'm not gonna hurt myself. it's too cowardly to do such a thing. sometimes i feel that i'm gonna die of teenage angst. sometimes i feel life is like solitaire. go and do your own interpretations of my opinions if you're really bored because i really do not have the mood to tell the world. i don't know what's wrong with me. before i blabber even more shiznit, i think imma go.





there you go, hadri yeo. my hiatus message. peaceout.



died-ed at 6:12 pm
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